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Auf Wiedersehen, Tom Cruise!

26 Jun

How you like Germany now, you psycho??

Suck it, Tom Cruise. I wish I knew how to say that in German.

Nostalgia

26 Jun

“A woman never forgets the men she could have had; a man, the women he couldn’t.” Edward A. Murphy

100 million years ago when the dinosaurs roamed the earth and I was still dating Un-boyfriend, I met a young man by the name of Tony. Tony was cute, he was funny, he was of Chilean and Argentinean descent, he was dreamy, he spoke Spanish, he was my age, he was also very taken. I was instantly smitten. Tony and I became fast friends, and I was desperately in love with him. Whenever I was with Un-boyfriend, I’d imagine what dating Tony would be like.

We worked in the same department, and whenever a new batch of associates would be hired, they automatically assumed that Tony and I were dating. I clearly remember the shock registering on their faces when they found out that I was with Un-boyfriend. “You’re with that guy?? I always thought that you were dating Tony.”

When we met, he’d been with his girlfriend for 6 years-they had met when he was a Senior in High School, and had dated pretty much throughout college. They were on the road to marriage, and Un-boyfriend and I were on the road to nowhere. We were both miserable in our relationships, and scared to get out of them. Neither one of us wanted to hurt our significant others, so we just sat around and made ourselves miserable instead. We spent countless hours on the phone discussing how the situation sucked, and what would happen if we were both single. In the morning at work, we’d tell each other about the dirty little dreams we had had about the other.

I was young, and so was he. Neither one of us knew what to do with the spark, so we did nothing.

Two years after we met, he left to work for another company. Shortly before he left, I was complaining to him (as I often did) of how miserable I was with Un-boyfriend. He said to me, “In 2 years, you’re going to be in the same place that I am. You guys aren’t going to break up you’ll end up married.” I thought about how unhappy he was, and didn’t want to find myself in the same situation. Un-boyfriend and I broke up a week later-the day after Tony’s going away party.

We kept in touch for awhile after he left, and then the time between phone calls gradually increased. He called me when he got engaged, then later that same year when his father became ill with cancer. He called me 2 weeks after his father died-just a month before he was to be married. 2 years went by, he called me out of the blue. I told him that our friend Karen had died, he told me he was a father. We ran into each other a year later, I finally met his mother. She remembered me from speaking on the phone with me so many years ago. We parted with promises of keeping in touch. Neither of us has called/emailed the other.

He was in my dream last night. Nothing exciting, he was just there. I haven’t thought about him in ages and ages. It’s strange how the mind works and how people you thought were out of your life for good are suddenly back in your thoughts.