You Left Without Saying Goodbye

15 Mar

You left without saying goodbye. We haven’t talked for 2 years, but we both knew where the other one was. Now I hear you’re leaving there and coming here for a different job with a different company. Why can’t you just stay there? Why must you come back here after all this time, after all these years. This is where I live-where we loved each other. But you chose to leave me here, and go there.

When I heard you were leaving this time, I felt such a deep sadness. Though it’s been years since things ended between us, there was some comfort in knowing where you were, and that in certain respects, we were still linked. With you leaving your job, it almost feels as if you’re leaving me all over again. Yet it’s been so long, and I wish it didn’t bother me anymore-that I could just forgot you and move on. Why does it still hurt so much? After all this time, why do I feel that pang in my chest and this lump in my throat as I write this?

We owe each other nothing. We said our goodbyes many years ago. I still think about you, all the time. I compare you to every man that I meet. They never compare to you-not ever. But why would I want them to? You were cruel to me. You broke my heart, you shattered it into a million pieces. I wept for you, and when I leave here today to go home, I’ll weep for you again.

I ache for you. I want to see you, but I don’t. We were terrible to each other: I cheated, you lied, then you left me here. Now you’ve left again. And yet you left without saying goodbye.

Goodbye. Have a nice life. It was nice knowing you. I’ll never see you again. Not ever. I’ll miss you.

7 Responses to “You Left Without Saying Goodbye”

  1. The Ambiguous Blob March 15, 2007 at 9:41 pm #

    love dies hard or not at all.

  2. Wanderlusting March 15, 2007 at 11:49 pm #

    Very true and well said.

    Love the blog btw, especially your wee icon.

  3. nolwen March 21, 2007 at 7:53 pm #

    at the moment, i know to much about that

  4. perplexityshe August 15, 2007 at 11:53 pm #

    Curse the hard things we have to go through.

  5. Raven January 13, 2009 at 8:02 am #

    This is so true comparing him to other guys. I use to do that all the time n i kept myself froming love. And when i finally let my guard down i fell in love with the best thing that ever happen to me!

  6. sherry March 20, 2011 at 6:20 am #

    First I want 2 say that I really respect you for your openness. It seems like we’ve been in the same shit. I still miss him and I still cry sometimes. But sometimes I say 2 myself that he isn’t worth my tears. And I know karma will do it’s work 2. Thnx again I really thouht I was the only one with those feelings but I’m too ashamed to write my feelings down. Now i know its better to wright then too keep it al inside where it hurts

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